又上了人生一大课

Felt so much better after releasing all the pain, "Gah!"
Kinda can't really recall what is what already, guess I am done ranting so far.

I do not hold grudge as the Hate will destroy me.

I don't deny my feelings for you, but somehow the scenes of you being with her - it just can't be wiped off just like that. I became very paranoid now, less when I could feel you being truthful.
Hope that Ms Paranoidism would leave soon.

Maybe I have always been 'acting' strong in front of you, but things you said to me many a times serves as reminder to me. And all these little reminders have grown me to be a better person. 

You have done things that have hurt her, and me too. You are trying to help in whatever way to lessen the pain, for the both of us. If you really wanted to help - the best way is to keep a clear distance, and not offering help any more. Being a female, I know exactly how a lady would think if a person that she likes offered assistance during bad moments. And, if you are the one offering the help, it will be difficult for her to move on. Saying this because other guys will have no chance to come in, you have been there always. There - in the heart.

I believe in you, since Day 1 I know you.
Many others do, the only thing you have to do is to open up and take them in.

It is not easy to grow strong, it is easy to be weak.
But being strong is like ecstasy, once taste it, never wanna let it go.

Nevertheless, I will always remember not to be strong by crushing down another person.

If you really care for a person so much, keep the person with you because that is the only way you could make sure she will not get hurt any more.