Productive DAY

Its finally a productive day after many many unproductive days... been not doing anything for the past few days after back from Boracay.
Have not been letting myself like this for longtime.. just lazing around, without much thinking.

Today, i woke up early to go to the gym with mom.. walking around the residence is.. refreshing and comforting.
Really love the precinct am staying in...

Another accomplishments is that i have finally cleared the two old bags and the diffuser, managed to get a couple of hundred bucks in hand. Haha.. and, its time to unwrap my MK!! Two of them, cant let those pretties lay under my bed anymore.

Then get kitchen cabinet set.
Next is fridge and washing machine, dining table, air-cond and am about done.

And am putting my fingers together for the business plan that has lingered long in my mind.
I have a feeling that its gonna work this time.. for sure!
Because I have met the right people, and right timing, with right knowledge.

Joyce, gambateh oh💪

真不该留
前前后后给了几乎整百千
还是什么都没有啊

呃 还有哦
昨个儿 看到照片
当初 你的忧虑总算过去了吧

那时你说 "现在你的朋友都知道了 那我还怎么面对他们呢?"
看吧
时间能冲淡一切啦

可hor 还真对不起
每次一看到你
我就会想起 你主动要求
要让他给你过夜的词句
"我明天一早就走"
恶心

证据 还在
只是不知save到哪里去了

求天保佑啊
别让我看到你们
*恶心*

正面 vs 负面

很努力地要维持正面
可忍不住的又把心里的全说了出来
你懂我 是 只有你懂我
又把自己当中心点了

我有错 确实有错
可你又却爱抢着认错
听着你无意把我想得不好
我又不开心了
心里头不是滋味儿

我也有错
有时候太大女人了
口是心非太多了

其实 我心里最想要的
是当你身后的女人
不断的给你鼓励
让你做事越是有劲儿
对自己更有信心

我也失败了
我也要更努力才是

发誓 三个月后
不会再有这样的事儿
我要先改变自己

(其实 我真的有变过耶
只是觉得硬被人拉了下来T.T)

白羊 天蝎

很奇妙的
好久好久 没能跟人这么畅谈
我承认 自那一次的分手后
或许一次又一次的失望后
我没想再跟人亲近

她 厉害
特别的亲切 特别的能做自己
很舒服 很坦然
今天 才发现
原来 又是一只蝎子
哈哈

我心里啊
认定了这妹子
会一辈子的护着她

想着想着
想当初 若你是姐妹
抑或我是兄弟
我们的友谊 或许能长存吧

当初的我 大概真是不懂事
不知道 谈的来的并不等于可以过人世

感恩你让我学会了
找男人 一定要找个
懂得照顾自己的男人

感动篇

没有想过你会在这一天
对我说这番话
让我特别的感动

你说
宝贝 我今天驾着车的时候
想到了一些东西
这一阵子 我真的没有好好的对你
让你觉得没安全感
你因为没安全感
才会做出这么多事

大概就这样吧
原字我是肯定记不住了
只记得 你才讲第二句
我就哭的唏哩哗啦了
只因为 我真的觉得 感觉到
你懂我了

也因为恰巧今天
我也想着同样的事儿
我真觉得 自己
刁蛮 任性 霸道
谢谢你的包容与了解
因为有你 我是幸福的

你的爱 很踏实
是放心的
你的努力 我看到了
为了你 我愿意去挨着地过日子

感恩篇

我前世修了多少福
才让我遇到了今生的你

谢谢😙

*感恩*

他

从那时候的挣扎到今天的接受, 其实没想过改变可以这么大。

从不需要操心他事业因为看到了他的积级~
每个人都会有个缺点
他也有他的
或许到头来
他想过说过的
都没办法达到

但 我也慎重的想过 考虑过
我不介意
不介意平凡的过
只想开心的过

幸福的2016

2016 just seem to be so perfect and its gonna continue to be =)

很搞笑, 我feel到我在你心里面是最特别那一个。哈哈哈😄
超不能忍受的自我感觉良好~~

*大笑一番*

希望你们幸福啦!
虽然一想到她
我还是觉得恶心
对不起啦
要怪 只能怪我知道得这么多

嗯 倘若你要我说实话呢
你和她 终究还是有缘无分
还是会擦身而过

宽恕
不是为了让你好过
而是要让自己放下了

Love?

You know what?
I still think i am not ready for it..
To be in a relationship.
I have been highly insecure, the feelings are not good.
I am with you
But I'm not sure if I love you
I guess i have not open up my heart
I'm afraid I never will

I don fall for any guys anymore
It is a clear line to all guys out there that "We are just only friends"
I have been forever doubtful of myself
But this time, I'm quite sure no one single man could capture my heart anymore.
Not even the one i used to love
That is now a stranger

I am having multiple mood swings
I could be laughing to myself at one moment, the next i can be crying.

I know I should let go.. its just not meant for me.
I'm happier spending time being single.
Read it right, its not about spending time being alone, its being single.

I felt myself being a burden to anyone, anyone at all that be with me.. I could not provide but only to demand.
You have been tolerating so much..
Its not your problem but mine to manage.. to be honest, I am sorry to have put you through all these.

Thank you so much for loving me.. but i seriously think I'm sucks at it, to love someone that is not my friends or family.

Work back into direction *peace*

I have trust issues
I have anger management issues
I have a heart who is always looking for excitements that bring joy and happiness

I am a greedy little gurl
Who has desire of never enough
When boredom hits me
It results in
the constantly behavioural-change me

Who knows what i want?
No one does
Not even myself

Perhaps it is my mom who understands me so well that she knows exactly when to throw the piece of advice when i am in the bad me.. knocking me out of the trashed me.

Journaling keeps me going
By talking to myself
But it would work only if I write it through positivity

So here it goes
Why did you go back into studies?
To keep myself busy?
Actually its more of to learn rather than spending it without purpose.
Other than learn, i actually wanted to train my discipline.

To be focus and determined!

Go Joyce go!! *arms up*