Deleting Mails

Didn't know clearing all mails could be therapeutic~
DELETED a total of about 15,000 mails today!
Yes, it's FIFTEEN THOUSAND mails~
Not having the (XXXX) next to inbox makes me feel... somewhat relieve...

Deleting mails is like deleting all overdue matters too?
I still have so much more lining up for me to clear, that's just life. The day when you have got nothing to clear is the day where you probably have to say "Bye bye" to the world.


<3 Thank you GOD <3
and thanks for giving me the chance to live life

释放

说不想就不想吗？
有那么容易就好了

浮现于脑袋的 太多了
不写下来
这些烦人的字句
是会把我脑袋给炮轰得装不下别的事

这几天 总是这里写一下
那里写一下的
笔记本啦
电话的memo啦
脸书啦
部落格啦
是只有这部落格的敢开放
因为没多少人懂啊

林先生 我说你啊
怎么说消失 还真的可以消失得无影无踪的呢？
可以这样吗？
Whatsapp竟然可以三天不上线！！

誏欣啊 誏欣 你可有立场开口训人呢？

有些人没勇气表白
因为害怕受到伤害
但不是每个人都懂得
其实拒绝人也会感受同等伤痛

我有多么的不舍 你不会了解
如果知道不适合 那倒不如及早剪断这红线
是谁告诉我 我们不适合
为什么就不能相信我们是匹配的呢？

真的 因为伤过太深
我把恋情这生命中重大的一部分
交给了他人
对自己的任何判断
是完全的不信任

你是很有自信的
相信着自己绝对 可以战胜一切
可你却忘了
我在感情里
还是那么的脆弱
你大概就是算漏了这点吧

结论：让时间飘，等待它到来

后悔 但只能向前走

后悔 后悔死了
可我没能做些什么
只能等待

只伤心了一天
就又继续往前走了
这一次 不回头了
曾经 自己回头过
但那一次 还是个错的
所以 对自己说
怎么都不回头了

到底怎么样的男人才是对的呢?

当时候那个不适合自己的
就坚持到底
誓死不罢休
现在遇到一个大好男人
反而那么的不确定
完全失去自信

真搞不懂自己

无所谓了
其实 还真的蛮享受
这无忧无虑 了无牵挂的
单身生活

Relationship is devastating

And why am I backing off again this time?
Just because of one time bad experience...?

Joyce oh Joyce..
You was never this low confidence before, not believing in it.
Getting the courage to tell a really good guy off your sight. Am not feeling anything right now. And I hope the heartbreak kind of feeling won't haunt me again.

-Relationships are devastating-

讨厌自己篇

受了伤的心灵
到底需要多久才能复原
或许是一个星期
一个月
或是一年
也说不定

有些人可能早已伤痕累累
有些人可能是新伤

能肯定的是
不管伤痕有多深
不及时处理
一定会留疤

而我心头上的那一个疤
每每触及都会让我哭得
像是疤痕被灼伤了般痛

如果 现在有人对我承诺一辈子
我还有勇气用心接受吗?

爱女心切

看到我流泪
是认定 她女儿受罪了
硬要跟我解释

为了你 竟然跟她大吵了一番
都走了
还为你流那么多泪是干嘛？
还因为你跟老妈子 嘶吼

最后 说了这句
“我不想要去计较这么多了
 他都说ok了
 他在让我你懂不懂啊？”

几分钟后 从楼上传来一句
“他真是让你
 干嘛还说那么多伤人的话？”

丢回一句
“他是这样的啦
 在一起这么多年
 还不懂吗？”

是啊 跟你在一起这么多年
流的泪 还真不少
就因为你那刀子嘴

下一个 别再这样了
真疼她 就别让她流泪
忍一忍 想一想
再说出口

-笔末-

I was left tearing in front of my mom..
Oh yes, I look tough. Then only to realized that I am not.

I saw the tears in ur eyes
I wish we don't have to come to this stage

Still wanted to stand by ur side, but will be scolded badly perhaps?
For being dumb, after being hurt so badly and yet still wanted stand on your side.

Reality calls.

I am sorry and thank you.

The two who came from different world

人怎么都会先为自己想吧？

俗称什么来着？ 

自私 ？

呵呵 （傻笑）

是自己太天真

一味的 只会付出

总觉得 大家都跟自己一样

总想为对方好

有那么一点点 受伤

其实 很受伤

但很快的 还是会收拾心情

不允许自己处在 那个伤心地太久

因为 明天还是要过

有时候 我会宁愿

你说出伤我心的话

好比完全不跟我说话

来的好

你要怎么做

就随你吧

你开心就好咯

要做什么 

敢敢去吧

只要你再回头时

需要帮助时

看到 我还杵在这儿

只要你肯问

我都一定会伸出援手

Another Day

These were one of those days
where I allowed myself to sink in thoughts
it is involuntary
Has been working myself up to the extend that I wouldn't have time
to.think

I dare not think about the Love.Hate relationships
so even if there is a right person who came up to me
I wouldn't know how to take the hand
to accept it

It may seem that I still trust easily
but deep down
I just got to see
that I have actually sealed IT up

Sealed what up?
"My Heart"
Am not gonna handover my heart to anyone anymore

Having some bad Separation Anxiety
Nevermind Joyce..
This will soon be over.
Soon..Very soon..
You are a tough girl, ain't you?

害怕
害怕自己对他人的依赖

只要发现有这么样的症状
理智就会立刻涉手控制
慢慢的 把心 好像收风筝般
把它给收回来
决不允许 任何人
再把它给拿走

只因为
它已伤痕累累
已经不起任何伤痛

就算有人承诺
不会再让它受伤又怎么样
我的心 由我自己保管

The silly gal who is always silly

It is almost a month pass our anniversary
I have been living on well
You won't believe I would still cry over it
When I think of us

I chose to believe
You live well without me
I chose to behave
Like it doesn't really bother me
I chose to bury it deep down in my heart
Just because I know we have to move on with our lives
I've also chose to believe
This is the best decision for us

It is gonna be a story to be told
When our hair is grey
With our grandchildren around
That there was this person that I've once love stupidly

It is not for this life time
Maybe..
Maybe we will do it better the next lifetime
Baby..