I am sorry.. I did a shout out for the unbearable pain in the heart.

I wanted to keep it, not to remind you and I anything about us.
And to let it pass.
But I can't, I really can't keep it in anymore.

I need to remind myself about your bad because the images, because the feelings about you are all the good ones.
To remind myself about the bad ones, so that I could pull myself away from wanting you so badly..
..at the times when I am really weak.
Deep down in my heart, do you know what's there?
It's "Dear is doing all this for the best of us, he always knows it best"
Truly believing it.

I am not living in the present. I am living in the past and future that has you in it.
Hence why the pain.
The dots couldn't be connected between the three dimension:
Past, Present, Future

I am better.
God always send me angels when I needed them to be around.
I am, indeed very bless.

And I wish you to be good and well too..

ALY
DarlinJ