他

从那时候的挣扎到今天的接受, 其实没想过改变可以这么大。

从不需要操心他事业因为看到了他的积级~
每个人都会有个缺点
他也有他的
或许到头来
他想过说过的
都没办法达到

但 我也慎重的想过 考虑过
我不介意
不介意平凡的过
只想开心的过

幸福的2016

2016 just seem to be so perfect and its gonna continue to be =)

很搞笑, 我feel到我在你心里面是最特别那一个。哈哈哈😄
超不能忍受的自我感觉良好~~

*大笑一番*

希望你们幸福啦!
虽然一想到她
我还是觉得恶心
对不起啦
要怪 只能怪我知道得这么多

嗯 倘若你要我说实话呢
你和她 终究还是有缘无分
还是会擦身而过

宽恕
不是为了让你好过
而是要让自己放下了

Love?

You know what?
I still think i am not ready for it..
To be in a relationship.
I have been highly insecure, the feelings are not good.
I am with you
But I'm not sure if I love you
I guess i have not open up my heart
I'm afraid I never will

I don fall for any guys anymore
It is a clear line to all guys out there that "We are just only friends"
I have been forever doubtful of myself
But this time, I'm quite sure no one single man could capture my heart anymore.
Not even the one i used to love
That is now a stranger

I am having multiple mood swings
I could be laughing to myself at one moment, the next i can be crying.

I know I should let go.. its just not meant for me.
I'm happier spending time being single.
Read it right, its not about spending time being alone, its being single.

I felt myself being a burden to anyone, anyone at all that be with me.. I could not provide but only to demand.
You have been tolerating so much..
Its not your problem but mine to manage.. to be honest, I am sorry to have put you through all these.

Thank you so much for loving me.. but i seriously think I'm sucks at it, to love someone that is not my friends or family.

Work back into direction *peace*

I have trust issues
I have anger management issues
I have a heart who is always looking for excitements that bring joy and happiness

I am a greedy little gurl
Who has desire of never enough
When boredom hits me
It results in
the constantly behavioural-change me

Who knows what i want?
No one does
Not even myself

Perhaps it is my mom who understands me so well that she knows exactly when to throw the piece of advice when i am in the bad me.. knocking me out of the trashed me.

Journaling keeps me going
By talking to myself
But it would work only if I write it through positivity

So here it goes
Why did you go back into studies?
To keep myself busy?
Actually its more of to learn rather than spending it without purpose.
Other than learn, i actually wanted to train my discipline.

To be focus and determined!

Go Joyce go!! *arms up*

I hate man.
Just any single guy, no matter how perfect they may seem, i still could pick on them.

Sigh

I know who's the one protecting me and who's not.. I'm just a little too naive.
Cant read the situation well.

I'm trying my very best to stay low profile, yet the glow i have cant be covered. Can't stay in this line for sure because i don't know how to protect myself.

I'm sorry.
Continue to stay low.
Continue to act dumb.
Continue to not to be seen?
Abit tough =(

Needed someone next to me who shine better than me, so i would look dimmer. I definitely know wat I'm talking. I know.

Ever regret that i changed job?
Not really.. but blessed to have all the ppl around me. Sorry lahhhhhh...

Confessions

Feeling terribly bad.. for forgetting to buy you cake and celebrating your birthday.

Having too many tasks in hand, one after another - I forgot to buy cake to celebrate with you. Was rushing home for assignment after gathering and visiting Baby Javier.

Just cant believe the whole family forgot about it! How sad could he be😣

I believe in blowing candles on the day of birth date, gonna buy you a cake tmr.

I'm sorry my dear brother,
I love you
&
Happy birthday!
Wish you gain more wisdom and be more wise, great adventure ahead!

爱情纪念日

无可否认的 我爱上了他
我爱他的坚定不移
我爱他的永不放弃
我爱他 因为他总为我设想

对他的爱 连旁人都看出来了
与之前我对他的态度
绝对有反差

刚才 电话里 他说
........................
但我对你的是爱
说得那么的肯定
像似定心剂般
还有那句
我这生命里这么多人
对你算是最好的了

我虽然知道 但听到了
免不了还是要高兴一番

谢谢你 为了我
做了那么多

Breath and Keep Going

Taking a lil time off to write..
I had my some sort of 'dinner' before class yesterday, 2 slices of Massimo bread and soymilk!

There are just lots of things to do, application to Mybrain.. get the Uni Car Sticker, submit my medical report, delayed the delivery of my new bed and mattress.
Seriously, i just cant wait to move out. Its gonna save me so much time..

=with much expectations=

First day back at the University

A little too pack of a schedule..
I surrender.

No time to shit
No time to rest
Just keep going

Today mark the first day at university, taking the evening classes. Yes, gotta admit - i love education.
Happy to meet new friends, really.. knowing a person without too much of a thinking. I hope to just go with the flow at work, unfortunately i can't.
Like you, being a salesperson, have you trained yourself to be a friend to your customers?

Need more time to rest, and less traveling time.
Dream come true very soon!

😍😍😍